beheld a vast golden cross with a rose at its center. The Woman admonished me that so long as I desired to venture further, I must
contest my way thither.
Therefore I approached the vast doorway and began to negotiate the rose bushes. As I did though, thorns and thickets tore asunder my flesh like a dagger – pain as nothing I have ever suffered. As I
finally prevailed, it was as if I had no flesh at all. I was a big, red, bloody skeleton.
I hurt.
There was an immense, golden phallus in the middle of the temple room and several men and women were observing me as if surprised. The men and women of the Temple pointed me to a pyramid. Upon the door was a seven-pointed Star within a circle
and in vast letters was scribed: B.A.B.A.L.O.N. There was a verse below it.
I meditated for a half of an hour after I read it. It declared:
Thee I invoke, the Bornless One. Thee of LVX and NOX.
ASAR UN-NEFER
HADIT and the Lustral fires of the Sun! And of the Son, Horus, I invoke Thee!
And of the Hierophant 666, I invoke thee! ASAR UN-NEFER
NUIT and the Lustral waters of BABALON! Come forth by Night and Scourge thy Blood!
IAO! IAO!
And transcend into the flame of OAI! Thy Beastial Golden Flame of Eternity!
APO PANTOS KAKODAIMONOS!
Aum.
After I opened my eyes, a beautiful lady with fiery eyes offered me a golden chalice filled with cold, icy blood. I drank of it
greedily as my breath intensified heavily.
I was placed upon a Cross-, my hands and feet bound in secured rope.
The lady and two men beside her watched as one other Woman pulled a dagger from a chalice of blood and plunged it into my
heart.
My world did fade to black.
I heard a voice pronounce, "Die everyday."
As I awoke and regained cognizance I had the realization, that my flesh was entirely intact. The lady with the dark hair was smiling
and watching over me.
We made love for most of the day, outside in the open Sun. By night, she led me to a long, narrow hallway and showed me the
next door.
The enigmatic Woman gave me a sword with a Serpent around it and told me to wear it on my back.
The Woman bade me farewell and vanished.
V. Geburah (Strength)
Upon the door of the Fifth Temple was a symbol that bore a semblance to a circle with an arrow pointing from the atop; the
arrow pointed left.
I walked in greeted by no one, yet I identified that most everything inside resembled a Kingdom. I walked scores of miles it seemed
before I found a most beautiful woman crucified. The Woman Crucified was bleeding everywhere. Two men and another woman
were drinking of her blood.
She seemed as though she did not mind at all.
Thus did I cut a cross into my chest and the two men and wanton Woman drank my blood as well. I drank the blood of the Crucified
woman that they called a name that sounded akin to "Lilly," nevertheless I am forbidden to reveal what Her true name Is.
There was a stained glass window like the kind one would see in a church with a most peculiar picture on it. It was a Lamb possessing the head of a different animal (resembling a goat to the
best of my observation) that they called the Lamb of Nod, who guarded the Garden of Nod.
Around the Lamb, strange words were written in a circle. SHkNA BABALON ISIS NUITH
There was also the secret name of the Woman who was the Mother of all of her kin. The two men and Woman informed me that on occasion a Seven-headed Beast would arrive there yet the two men
and Woman advised I flee before He arrived. I thanked them for their kind hospitality and the two men and Woman pointed me to the next door. They asked if I would like to tend to my wounds and wipe away the blood that was all over me, though I told them I
was well as ever. I continued onward.
IV. Chesed (Divine Mercy)
The door of this Temple had a symbol upon it that resembled the numeral 4 added with a curve upon it. As I walked in, I was greeted by a beautiful Angel who called Himself Iblis. He told me
the Temple was of all things past.
All that the future held was a mirror of the past, Iblis pronounced, which I did not exclusively understand at the time. Iblis revealed to me secrets, which I am bound never to reveal. Nonetheless, I
will say that Iblis showed me another man whom resided there, though he was not the guardian. This fellow was a plump, oriental
man whom consistently meditated. Iblis invited me to join the Oriental Magus. He and I came to sit upon a cloud that he called
Asana. The Oriental Magus educated me in many disciplines including what the Oriental referred to as, "Samsara," the circle of
Time, Life, and Brahman.
I meditated for a half of an hour after he recited this:
Dhukka Dhukkata, the symptom of life, Happiness the foundation of all human strife,
The silence is mercy, the oath I have sworn, By all I create, another death shall be born.
ABRAHADABRA!
The Oriental Magus was exceedingly compassionate, and I wished to remain a longer time yet Iblis took myself unto another room in
the Temple where a mammoth golden Sun surrounded a pond whereupon a Lotus stayed afloat for all eternity. Now and again a
flame would come from the centre of the Lotus, which meant that the fire of suffering was somehow a way to show man the Truth of
Divine Mercy.
Promptly I was shown an entire wall of memories from the past, and dreams that eventually make the past a bridge to the future and
it would eventually circle around as if to devour time itself. Everything in the Temple chamber was so warm and breathtaking
that I desired to reside there forever, yet I knew I must persist in my journey.
As Iblis shepherded me to the next door, the Oriental Magus walked over to me and gave myself a small Lotus and bid myself
much Joy in Life.
I thanked the Iblis entity and Oriental Magus both and ambled onward from end to end a ostensibly endless hall of strange visions, mostly of babies and fetuses, yet also of children playing
and singing joyful liturgies.
The end of the antechamber hallway was dark and uncanny; it was there I found the next door.
III. Binah (Understanding)
The symbol of Saturn was upon the door of the Temple chamber of Binah, the Third Temple. Upon the wall of the Temples, an Eye
within a Triangle was exhibited.
I dare not speak a word of my journey through the Third Temple therefore I scribed verses for the All:
HERMES the veil of HADIT, HERMES the veil of the Architect,
INRI mirrors TARO Those that I heal, I infect. The God of the Sun and its fire, SOMA the Moon and ISIS the moon,
Sarasvati the whims of desire, The oyster in sorrow's lagoon.
The male is the Sun (Son),
but SOMA inhabits the Moon of the Male, The Oyster of LUNA upon him, Completion is just beneath the veil, As two become one, She devours the Light,
NOX upon Him, He devours the Night, The balance of circles, each day that we die,
The triangle does encompass the Eye.
The Eye of Horus is the Eye. The Androgyne conquers duality.
The Black Star of the Pyramid, The Six-fold Star and the beautiful Lie. The semen of the Universe is the fault of Creation. The womb of the Universe is the fault of Creation. Baphomet beckons man to declare his Creation.
The Eye of Shiva is I.
I am the Sleeping Star within the Eye of the Sleeping Star. I am She who knoweth the Bornless One. I am He who is
naught.
Abrahadabra. Aum.
I felt an unfamiliar sense of suffering as I left the Temple.
II. Hokmah (Wisdom)
As I passed into the antechamber door that beheld the sigil of Uranus, I met the guardian of the Second Temple. The floors were all of black and white checkered tile. The guardian was clothed in a black robe and he did not face me. Above the guardian was exhibited a large Circle encompassing a
The black-robed guardian faced an Altar upon which was the Rose Croix.
"You cannot pass through here."
I believed he was right. Beyond him was another door that I would not open.
The black Guardian of the Temple of Hokmah pointed me to a different chamber door. Surmounted by it, the identical symbol as upon the first door, the X within the Circle. In my heart I knew my
journey was over, thus I did pass through the door to which the black Guardian directed me. I knew that there were so much more additional mysteries to see in the Temple in which the black-robed
One guarded, yet, alas, I could not pass thereto.
When I passed through, I entered into a darkened room wherein I meditated for one hour.
I. Keter (The Crown)
All that is, all that has been, all that will be. All that I am.
I Sacrifice myself on the Altar of I-AM-NAUGHT. For you, I will understand but I will never know.
In my Lust, I will slay myself for love is death and beauty is pain and I am NAUGHT.
But all of this has naught to do with the King of this Kingdom. And all of this has naught to do with you.
All of this has naught to do with me. All that I am.
For you I will be but I have never been. Betray not the silence.
Aum.
The Magus sets forth to conquer Hirself and come to
understand the All (and One). The operations of the Magus require Hir to understand the five elements with all five senses and create a sixth sense that can be visibly measured in the awakening of the Third Eye. Volumes have been written and Temples have been built to profess the Way of the Magus, but attainment is, always has been, and will be eternally in the hands of the individual who
sets forth to understand and apply the Great Work. The Secrets and Mysteries of the Ancients have been passed down and many have interpreted, translated, and applied these mysteries-- but these mysteries have always existed in the Self. Whatever the culture, the similarities of the attainment of the Higher Self bewilder even the most educated observer. How does one come to understand these things? Where can one begin? Can one even fathom the Way of the Magus without specific instruction? The author believes that in order for one to find the Way, one must jump, both feet into the black. One will find Hirself lost in an alien land with pieces of a vast puzzle, strewn about the dark, veiled in symbolism and metaphor with no rhyme or reason. Nothing can be made of it, it seems. Slowly, pieces interlock and one day, he or she may find his or herself intertwined with the puzzle; a missing path of the Labyrinth and there the journey truly begins. One will hurt, one will falter, fail and mistakes will be many, but victory is the continuity of the path. One will realize, “the more I find, the more I realize I don't know.” Eventually, the Magus does see the Path take shape beneath Hir feet. Then the journey begins truly-- but for this to happen, the former must proceed the latter. So if you Will, come forth and in the Darkness, fall with Us. "Let her rip."
“What see we here? Forms, nothing more! Forms fill the brightest, strongest eye, We know not substance; 'mid the shades shadows ourselves we live and die. "Faith mountains move" I hear: I see the practice of the world unheeded The foolish vaunt, the blatant boast that serves our vanity to feed.”
-Richard Burton, “The Kasidah of Haji Abdu El- Yezdi”
I. Undoing the Self
The enlightened man knows that we have been indoctrinated by folly since the day of our birth. Our pre- dispositions hinge on blind faith, prejudice, lies, and fear. Our sense of "Them and Us" is greatly mistaken and even our
spirituality (so-called) is a synthesis of poison and myth. You are a lie or a copy of a lie. You are deceived or you are a deceiver. Immediately, the pride (Ego) of man declares his individuality (quite erroneously), for he is set apart from all other things. He becomes the alien set apart and disassociated from the world around him, but in his venture from the matrix of lies and web of illusion, he becomes a product of the matrix via programmed rebellion. Is there no escape? Death! Death is the Ultimate escape from the lie of duality and illusion of the Ego!
Imagine stripping the Self of all preconceived notions and blind beliefs. It seems like asking one to live without skin or muscle and move without nerve or bone- to survive as a Soul with no host (or vessel). Actually, it is a lot like that. Undoing the Self demands one to set forth on a mission of destroying the Ego and all sense of Self (to embrace the Anti-Self) and give birth to a new creation, magically bound to the Higher Will. You are dead and a new Higher Self is the symptomatic reaction of this Death/
Creation. The journey leads you to Eden to return the garden to its original state and destroy the lie of sin within your macrocosm, all the while; you are constantly being thrown back into the clutches of the lie. You venture to find yourself, knowing you are dead but alive, perfect in your search but flawed to the soul, becoming older in your years but you are your own recreation. This is the heart and soul of the Magus. The death of the former Self.
“Mind is a disease of Semen”
-Aleister Crowley, The Book of Lies II. Asana pet: Soma ciel
The Magus sets forth to Undo the Self; to silence the mind is to destroy the enemy phantoms, which enslave it.
“The essence of darkness reveals itself to whoever looks at the sun.”
-The Book of the Dead
00. At midnight or later, set thyself before candlelight and no other light.
0. Be still thy body, in what manner of position thy Will.
I. Each time the body shifts so does the mind misdirect; discipline thine (self) and be still as silent. Each time movement occurs, redirect the Self and start anew.
II. Breath deeply to what rhythm may manifest in thy heart (slow and controlled).
III. Be aware as fully as can be possible of Right Now This Moment as breathing continues.
IV. Begin counting to ten; each time count is lost, return to one.
V. Each though of distracting nature that will arise, return to one.
VI. When silence of thought begins to manifest the seed of Gnosis, remain aware that thou shall silence the Self. Awareness must be fixed upon the nature of the Gnosis or revelation, rather than the Self.
VII. If thou wilt, stop. Practice several times before advancing to the next stage.
After something resembling perfection may arise, advance to the following:
VIII. When revelation doth cease, embrace the Anti-Self. IX. Visualize the Ego as a large, black sphere floating from atop thy head into a larger sphere that containeth a blinding, pulsating light. Breathe evermore deeply!
X. Whence the black eclipse the light and the light
devoureth the black, see the becoming of the All. Embrace the All as it becomes the One.
XI. Elevate thyself in vision to become part of the All, and dissolve thyself within the flame of Illuminating Darkness!
XII. Annihilation; come to.
000. Third Eye Awakened! A black candle before you, a red candle to thine left, whites to the right- the triangle encompassing. Put before you a skull or a picture or symbol of Baphomet.
00. Become as the Eye.
0. Be still, be silent: and in mind.
i. Breath deeply, utilizing II-IV in the former exercise. ii. Visualize the three points in red light encompassing thee. iii. Visualize the red light completely around thee in the shape of a triangle; see thyself as a black circle within.
iv. Feel thine eyes open but do not open them. Visualize whatever the symbol or object placed in front of you without actually
looking at it.
v. Visualize a red ray of light projected from between thy brow. vi. The red light shineth into thee triangle and becometh one with it.
vii. The red light of All devoureth ye. viii. Annihilation; breath deeply.
ix. Utilize IV-VI in the former exercise. Stay focused until ye Will, armed with the revelations and Gnosis that did occur. x. Annihilation: come to.
xii. Holy Illuminated Stars of the Darkness of God
The aim of the Magus is the perfect synthesis of Science, Art, and the Divine. To draw one's self toward Divine
understanding is a result more so than a goal. Self-illumination is alchemy simplified into spiritual practices. While one sharpens their understanding, one stumbles upon missing pieces of a vast puzzle, and each individual does so at different times, yet every path is equally valid. (That has not to say that there are not risks involved with being wrong about things and then building a foundation on error, but mostly, I believe that people are capable of pulling themselves from the depths of the abyss in which I speak.) To keep "in the current" is a daily struggle that should never be undermined by one who wishes to attain the continuity that develops Magick more clearly as a practice, life, and True Path. One must "die each day" and remain aware of the snares that are set in the path we tread. Choronzon is the ultimate snare; a sort of arrogance and narrow mindedness that can manifest itself in many ways.
As aforementioned, prejudice, blind faith, and the like are often things that prevent one from obtaining necessary knowledge, but they are also things that will lead one backwards to destruct in a counter-productive manner. Some error is healthy and teaches us something; some error is useless. The Magus allows a margin of error in all endeavours in life, but this is an acquired skill, so it seems. Ethnocentric ideas and trendy prejudice are extremely dangerous poisons of the Magus.
Often nations in times of war sew the seeds of fear, panic, and mania and people developed unhealthy habits of demonizing entire nations, creeds, races, etc. without realizing the painful consequences of herd-consciousness in the first place. Herd- consciousness is the bi-polar opposite of truly becoming One with