You all know the remedy, don’t you? But that is not what I am going to ask right away. Because the most important question is always: ‘Quis’? Çur”?
‘Who is the person’, ‘when did it start’?
And you have heard me asking these questions.
I am always very grateful when somebody has the courage to come up here and tells his story in front of everybody. And I am always impressed and admire it, I must say. This is not easy and I am very grateful that you are very honest, too. Not easy to explain your things in front of everybody!
So for us, what did I say yesterday? What is the most difficult to find is the Core Delusion. Do you remember this? Now did you pay attention what I told yesterday and what you have seen today? Yes I know, that you especially paid attention and everybody else too, I hope, well what have you seen?
Audience: …… 01.03
Yes, did you pay attention? What did I ask right now? Or what has she just told me, what did she tell me right now? And it was the story, the history, the story what has happened 30 years ago. And it is 30 years ago, that is important, you know. Thirty years ago and there was mainly, so as you said, a feeling of guilt. That is a fact and you see now and what has she done with it, she pushed it away, she suppressed it, because naturally, her first
reaction was to ‘close herself off’. 02.01
She closes herself.
On purpose I haven’t asked the family history yet, but I will ask about it, you know, because it is very interesting, and especially I am going to ask about the father’s side. And I know that something must be there, but I will ask it later.
So what is she doing, she has the grief. Her reaction is what?
To put a wall around herself. As you say ‘I closed’. Closed so much, to the point that she completely won’t say anything to anybody anymore. Then what does she say why?
I feel ashamed, I feel…, what else did she say? I don’t want it to become known of course, I want to push it away. I will not talk about it, I can’t talk about it. In a way you want to talk about it, but you can’t get yourself so far to talk about it. Do you see what a battle this is. She doesn’t stand any chance.
If we have such deep grief and we can express ourselves. It is such a relief for a human being.
03.12.
If we can’t do this, we are going to pay for it. So why is she doing it in this way? And why did I say, I am going to ask about the family, but why is she doing it in this way? You see we first want to understand the person, then we are going to talk about remedies. But first we have to understand her. Why is she doing like this? And why is she, maybe…., maybe if I would go through this, I would take the phone and I might speak about it with somebody, maybe I am going to a psychotherapist, you know, there are different possibilities, you know. That’s why we have to think about this. What does it tell you. Why am I interested in that?
04.07
Audience: Which miasma.
L: Yes of course, that’s why I said. The miasma of course, that’s why I said, I will have to ask the side of your father. And I will see it also at once.
Maybe you can say something here? Wendela: ……
Wait for the microphone.
W: My father was a sailor, he was gone for two years and then he was home for three months. And the marriage between my mother and father was not very good, because he drank too much alcohol.
L: He was an alcoholic? W: Yes he was an alcoholic. L: Aha.
W: And something else I know, I know this from my mother, that they had been married by proxy, so he in Indonesia, my mother in the Netherlands and when she came there, she found that my father was infected by syphilis.
L: That he was infected by syphilis? W: Yes.
L: This I know beforehand that there had to be something, why did I know this? Why did I say that already before she had told me, I am going to see it. What do we see now? As you can see her expressions. And for me this is important. Sometime we are…., we only give attention to what has happened, what the trigger is, what the causality is.
But we also have to know, how did the patient react. That is at least as important, even more important almost as the trigger. How does she react and how has she reacted, hide, suppress. And I knew for sure, that I would find a syphilitic miasma by your father. But it is syphilis itself, but alcoholism of course, self destructive.
W: Something else has happened, because he is…., my father and mother….,
At a certain moment my mother couldn’t continue with the marriage, then she wanted to divorce and my father found it so terrible, he then went to live with his family, so he didn’t return to us.
He went on his motorcycle, they had…., the people from the pub had bound him to his motorbike, so he couldn’t fall off. Then he drove against a tree and fell into the water. A car driver found him. He then still lived for three months, but this had never been told to our family, only two days after his death we were called and were being told that he was deceased and that they didn’t agree with the wreath that was going to come on his grave. Then I went with my brother…., we have been there, we just got in time to…. , they opened the coffin for us, we just had the opportunity to see, but….. yes.
L: You see.
W: There was more…. 6.42
L: A heavy hereditary load.
W: They hadn’t informed us and later he has also …, when he just was in the hospital he had asked to see me and my brother, but this was denied by the family. They just did as if the family didn’t want to have any contact with him.
L: Besides your father, from your father’s side, do you know something about it, does he have brothers and sisters?
W: Yes.
L: Can you say something about them?
W: Yes, I don’t know the family very well, we didn’t have much contact with them, but yes all of them were….., One of them was also an alcoholic indeed.
L: And his parents, do you know them?
W: His mother died at a very young age. I belief with 35/36 and his father became quite old, he was very….
L: His mother died young?
W: Ehm, mother died young and his father…. L: Do you know from what?
W: No.
L: But early, yes, 35/36. W: Yes
07.47
L: You see it again: Woman-man-woman, you see, always right, you know by forehand. You see now the heavy load from this side. I knew from your father’s side I knew for sure it had to be and you see what happens when she now has so much grief, a very strong grief, sudden, suddenly, and in addition to that the mother say’s: it is your fault, that is usually…., I call it the crime that has been done to her, the crime not intra utro, but later when you already have much more feelings. It is very difficult when you are 18 years to deal with this.
No doubt about this. See what happens, what I told you yesterday, you have no choice to react. It is predetermined in you. I would know if you come across it, because I know now you have a strong load from the syphilitic miasma that you are going to react in this
manner. Run away, hide, suppress everything, don’t think about it, much too painful and of course..,.. that is what Jung has called the ‘mandatory respons pattern’, not ‘elective’. You can’t choose it. It is really something you will do to everything.
09.09
Audience: ……
L: To close off, is not communicating. Locked up, cut off from the world, cut off from
communication, it is also hiding, not being able to talk. Every time you see a sudden break, a break in communication, when you have an accident and there are people who have a head trauma, such an accident with a head trauma, as we call it, right, head trauma, but there are different reactions that you can have. But if this would happen with our beautiful lady here with the syphilitic background, then you immediately have loss of memory. And that does not happen with everybody, some people have change in character, but somebody with sudden loss of memory, such as we can see after a head trauma, then I guarantee you that you can find the syphilitic miasma. You see, sudden break is also an expression, sudden destruction, you see, from something, it is communication. As she has said, I want to talk but I can’t, it stopped, paralysis, you can almost say, right, paralysis. Audience: ….…
10.31.
No, no, there is a difference. There is a difference and yesterday I also said something about, paralysis, when it is inflammation, caused by an inflammation, like with Bell’s Palsy, that is psora, but established paralysis as we call it, when it is established when it looks as apoplexy, it is syphilis. There is a difference. So, here as you can see...
And what has happened, so for me, as you really can see, the Core Delusion, you know where you can find it. It is connected to her statement, to her feeling of guilt, she put it away.
What else did I ask, what else did you see, do you have any idea what happens to her now? We know what has caused it. We know since when it is. Then intentional I have asked other symptoms that came along. At once becoming much warmer, can’t sleep anymore, heat, she has to go outside, in the fresh air. So what happened two months ago? 11.39
Audience: She fell in love.
L: She fell in love. Love can hurt, he! But it is strange, then I ask…. now I have listened very well, she tells me and I also asked it like this what kind of feelings, and of course there are two, cheerfulness, and then of course happiness and then grief. On purpose I didn’t ask which of the two is the strongest, because I knew the answer, then why should I ask it. What do you think?
Audience: Grief. L: And why René?
Answer: …..
L: Yes of course it is grief and why because she started to cry….., so that is the Core Delusion, ok. The Core Delusion is, everything you are doing, everything you think, do you still remember what I said ... comes from the Core Delusion. So before that too, not only there was the happiness to hear again from a man, with who she was in love with, but from the same time also the painful memories came back and that of course is the most difficult. It is a nice case, every case is beautiful, isn’t it.
12.56
Now, what do you think is the Core Delusion ? What is the Core Delusion ? What happened when……
Audience: ……
L: Right, yes that is a good prescription, and what do you think what is the Core Delusion? I still haven’t heart the Core Delusion yet. I can tell you the different delusions, if I tell them to you, you will say, ok, yes, but I first want to hear it from you.
Audience: ……
Absolutely, for the first time I am going to ask you to translate the language of the patient into the rubrics: delusion……
Audience: Delusion, he has committed a crime.
L: Could be, very good, delusion he has committed a crime. Delusion, brother fell overboard in her sight.
14.00
Have you heard about that? It is nice, it is in my computer: Delusion, brother fell overboard in her sight.
But also more important….., Which I did not hear yet.
Go back and I am going to help you with it. Take her place and this happens. And what did her mother do, her mother accused her. Yes, even stronger, you are the one who caused it. It is your fault, even to that extent that she is not allowed to see her other brothers and sisters any more. I mean what else can you do then run away. Do you see how syphilitic her mother was. So…., the normal role of a mother, I am going to take you there now step by step, is what? Protecting, loving, caring, consoling. What happened here?
Audience: Repudiated.
Exactly what a mother should not do.
Her Core Delusion is, so as we call it, ‘mother is dead’. This is her Core Delusion. When she needed her mother, her mother cast her off completely, not completely cast her off...., but accused, I mean attacked. The worst thing somebody ever can do.
Her reaction so as we have said already, syphilitic, closing off, breaking, run away and with that she has lived for thirty years. And I am sure about it, although, I haven’t forgot to asked about it on purpose, that she has thought about it once in a while, but as little as possible. Get busy, get busy, so nothing happens.
So for me, the last two months ago. I always ask in my mind, is there more than one layer? Is there more than one layer or do we have one thick layer of thirty years?
See, you too have to ask yourself this question. What do you think? So we already know now the core delusion. We know what has happened, we know her reaction, it has to be a syphilitic remedy he. For sure, syphilitic. So how many layers do you see? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, then, why this is so important ? Well, if there are two layers, first we have to treat the first layer if there is only one layer, then oeps.
I shall give you the definition of a layer. One layer, if there is one…., if there are two layers then every layer has a different symptomatology, number one, and a different causality. Ok? Then you have two layers.
Here what do you think? The first.…., yes of course one layer. Of course, then for a very short moment, for a very short moment I thought, sleeplessness, happy event, coffea, but that thought left me quickly, then of course the Core was….., except for the happy event, the other things came up and then I knew, the other things are much more important and I didn’t ask it on purpose to let you think, but I am sure that she would give that answer. The ….., the pain that she must have felt after thirty years, thirty years of suppression is very big and as I tell you, you have to see the Core Delusion. You have to look closely. There it happens, every time again, I can tell you that.
18.05
So it is easy, isn’t it, in this way. Of course you have to find it, what is it, of course. So now we have all said this, it is ok; we are doing well, aren’t we.
You see, you have to answer all this questions, because when there are two layers, three layers, when there are three layers you must have three remedies, according to the definition of a layer…. When there are two layers, two remedies. When I say a layer of thirty tears, this is the case here, one remedy.
Of course it is important to know this, because for a patient…., for you it is important that you only need one remedy. But also you want to know, how fast can I go, how long is it going to take, which potencies I am going to give, if it is only for two months it is called acute, ok! That is a very different potency then in a chronic case. That is important. So it is not that you can easily say, one layer, two layers, three layers, you have to know for sure, but sure, but did you see now clear enough, that it is really one layer. It is the same trauma, the trauma just came back, after everything she wanted to have suppressed, fear that it would comes back. Could you follow?
19.21
Audience: ….
What you are asking me, in a way you are speaking about two different things. You speak about a trauma and you talk about the hereditary load and of course the two go hand in hand together. In other words we call it: Never Well Since, Ailments From.
And the hereditary load (influence) is going to tell me how she is going to react. I always say, be clear, you have to have two things, just like a barbecue. We have the coals, right, but nothing happens with the barbecue, until I put a fire in it. That’s the trigger. That’s the
causality, you see. The two things go hand in hand together and now we have the picture. Now we can barbecue. The same, he.
So, I have to know the trigger and then I say how is she reacting, now. That of course is important, because it gives me some information about the remedy, if I have two remedies that are close. But one is very syphilitic and the other is not, then you know which one you are going to choose of course. So you see it goes hand in hand. I speak about two different things. But they are going hand in hand. We always want to know this, what is the Never Well Since, and how did he react. An other question?
What do you think now? Now, now you can think about a remedy. Now you will have to…. 20.50
Audience: …...
At a certain moment Pulsatilla also came to my mind, but mainly because of the heat and all this things, but, I also asked her then about her grief. What did she answer? Quietly she says, quietly. That goes against Pulsatilla and there is a very big difference, so, but I have to say Pulsatilla had to be in the differential diagnosis, very good. And I also thought about it, a little bit, but because off an other aspect, no it’s losing, it’s losing. But such a great suppression: Pulsatilla would never do that, for thirty years.…., so.
Audience: Aur-m-n.
L: Don’t make it too complicated. Just say: Nat-m. 21.42
Just say Nat-m, keep it simple. Audience: …..
The Kali’s you also have to….., so the differential diagnosis there is no doubt, the Kali’s,