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April 22, 1998 Wednesday - Today‟s updesh (teaching) was all around free will with different examples. This is difficult one to understand since it is limited free will and not complete 100% free will and one does not know how, where to draw the line. Secondly it is even harder to practice due to vagaries of mind, likes and dislikes that play on us so subtly. Baba also shows how important it is to act on his guidance since the events and timing are so intricately interlinked that it is easy to miss them. This in turn either speeds up or delays the whole process, the spiritual journey.

As usual she woke up today at 4:30 am and did puja and meditation. In meditation Baba told her today the difference between her effort and His wish for her to do the meditation or not to do the meditation and how to differentiate that. If she wakes up naturally at certain time in the morning and if she chooses to go back to sleep that is her laziness. If she does not wake up till 6 am means He wants her to rest.

He further said regarding the updesh she gets from Baba that she is not to take it lightly when she hears about what to do. Baba has been asking her to write. Yesterday while coming back from work she saw something in the sky which felt like a window made up by the clouds and she gets the thought that there is a narrow window and she has to operate in that. It is narrowing. Today Baba told her regarding the writing he had been

asking her to do “I will help; it will all flow together; it will come together. But you need to put in your effort”. She asked “Should I take time off and not go to work?” Baba said

“No. I gave you a schedule and if you follow the discipline, you can do it even at work.”

He said that he advised her to do the asanas (exercises) and she is not doing that. “Don‟t fall into the trap of „getting Updesh‟ routine. Hear it, practice it.” He did not want to talk to her unless she is going to do exactly what she is asked to do. Baba was not upset but he responded this way to her since she has been asking him to talk to her. This helped both of us to gain better understanding about free will.

In meditation she saw again the same scene that she saw once in her dream where Lord Shiva came and put his Trishul in front of her and then went into a room. He returned from there and pulled off the snake from his neck with effort and put it on her spine.

Then she saw another scene that she saw earlier where a person (not sure if it was herself or her mother) was sitting and praying while a snake is protecting that person.

Baba said about R “AUM is a sign of creation. This sign of AUM (that R saw in his dream) is meant to let them know that a great soul is being created in their home. This child is going to do a lot for the humanity.”

April 23, 1998 Thursday - Today Baba explains to her how her depth of devotion and sadhana has kept the time window open which otherwise would have closed. One thing to note as one reads through these messages is in order to attain God‟s grace one needs three things. They are „Purity, Purity, and Purity‟ in thoughts, feelings, words, and actions. In today‟s experience reader will get a feel for when is one pure and there are gradations in purity itself. And yet spiritual progress and God‟s grace start dawning on a person as they make the effort and that in turn would help that person along on gaining further purity.

Baba explains how the spiritual awareness is increasing in the world, the reason for it and how it is an ongoing phenomenon as time goes through the cyclical phases from Kali Yug (Iron Age) to Sat Yug (Golden Age).

What an opportune time to be born and be aware of Sai and other spiritual beings that are bringing this change along!

He coaches her today on many things and one of them is how to move forward on the spiritual path and not be stuck with ritualism.

She woke up at 3:25 am. She felt lazy and went back to sleep. She woke up at 4:10 am and remembered what Baba said about laziness. As she started the puja, there was a buzzing noise of a fly but could not see the fly. When she touched Lord Shiva and Parvati, she saw a remarkably shiny light. Baba said “Go sit down”. She sat down and closed her eyes to do meditation when Baba said “During this time you have been trying to resolve an internal conflict regarding how much to tape and what is the purpose of the taping etc. You have resolved the conflict. Now I will continue the updesh.” He said “In the last couple of days you have called me from the bottom of your heart. Not that I was gone somewhere, left you and have come back. When you call me with that depth I surface.” “There was a time when things could have slipped. The window (in the sky) would have closed on you for the time being. But your sadhana has helped in keeping it open.” She asked “Why did it go away in the first place? You are my thought and actions.” Baba said “Purity, Shivangini.” She said “You said I am pure as purity.” He

said again “Purity, Shivangini.” She said “I am not pure …..” This thought was pulled out of her mind entirely.

Yesterday we were talking about if people do not even read the book then how are we helping? Earlier Shivangini was praying for her mother and my mother along with others.

Today in response to that Baba said “His mother (Gyani‟s) is blessed. Your mother has not received direct blessing but she needs help, from you and you should.” He further said “One person you need to think about who will not read your book is your mother.

The reason she will not read because of the language. But this is not the only way you are going to help the people. You know the way, I have taught you, how the virtues help day by day and you got to emphasize those virtues. Talk to her, you can do that.” She said

“Baba you have been helping me, prompting me internally when I do something wrong etc.” Baba replied “You know the process. You can do it; for me.” She understood that this kind of helping, hand holding she has to do for few selected people. She said “Baba most of these things happen internally. It happens at a time when I am not talking to anyone. That is when you have taught me.” Baba said “Just try.” “You need to stop hugging people.” He told her earlier that she could energize people and referring to that he said “You can exercise that but not if you are hugging indiscriminately. Everyone does not need to be energized.” She asked “What do I do?” Baba said “Think.”

Suddenly Baba said “Concentrate.” She closed her eyes and was going to start with Muladhara chakra. Suddenly Baba brought something to her attention which moved her to heart chakra and due to that she said AUM. As she uttered it she could see the Sun. A ray from the Sun came and hit her heart and was reflected back as she was uttering M of AUM. Same thing kept happening with each AUM. Then she felt she was all enveloped in something. She sees a vision of a plastic container where it was filled with water and saw it spilling. As it did she could feel the vibration all over her body especially in the upper part and it felt very good. This kind of thing happened before when Baba said

“Nectar is spreading.”

Baba said “You wanted to know the meaning of Shivangini. You will be able to put all of it together when you go to Shirdi, Arunachal, and Chittorgarh. Go there and you will find out your own truth.” She asked “What is it Baba?” He said “Consider yourself Shakti.”

She said “You don‟t mean Shakti like God?” He said “No. Think of yourself as power, Shakti.”

“You tell me all these important things. You say every word of yours counts as is rather than me substituting words. If I can‟t remember all that goes on, and cannot capture all your updesh then what is the use. You got to help with memory, sequence etc.” He said “I will. Go ahead and concentrate.”

She started concentrating on the chakras. At the end he said “Ok. What happened today?

Go ahead and capture it.” As she was capturing He corrected her of things she was forgetting about the message regarding Mummy.

We know of many people who are having dreams or visions about God like R, P, and M etc. We also heard about Kalki Bhagwan the other day from J, and A. Wall Street recently carried an article on Ramanand Sagar and God.

Baba said today “Know it, that it is all real. The Kalki Bhagwan they were talking about is all true also. What is happening right now is because it is the end of the Kali Yug, Avatar takes many different means to bring the change and move toward Sat Yug. This

phenomenon is nothing new. It is eternal; it has been going on in all ages. Right now you see more concentration of it because of the timing. Avatar is doing all these. It is all true.

Believe it.” This answers the question of why now and why not 20 years back. Baba says it is picking up speed for a reason. Time has come that many of us will be touched by divinity.

She sat down to do meditation in the evening when Baba prompted her to pull out the picture of Lord Shiva which was in a drawer near our shrine. She got it out and it had Shiva Chalisa (40 lines of prayers to Lord Shiva) at the bottom of the picture. She was about to touch lord Shiva‟s feet in reverence when she heard “Don‟t”. She understood that Lord Shiva is in Samadhi and not to disturb him. She never thought like that before because it was just a picture of Lord Shiva in meditation. She read the Chalisa as she was prompted and when she came to the line which read please take care of all my sorrows.

At that time Baba stopped her and asked “Do you have any sorrows?” She stopped to think and then realized that she did not have any sorrow. She replied “I do not have any sorrows”. It surprised her because a year before she could have come up with things that bothered her. Baba said “Reading Shiva Chalisa is not for you given where you are spiritually. These are the steps to get somewhere where you have already reached. You don‟t need to read all these”.

Recently R had a dream where he saw a huge AUM. AUM is a sign of creation.

Baba said today that a great soul is coming into their family as their grandchild (Shivangini knows that they are expecting a grandchild). That child will do a lot for humanity. This child should be named Abhay or Muktha. She understood that she is supposed to share it with them.