El papel de Mcm5 en el control de la expresión génica

May 16, 1998 Saturday - She has an experience of the effect of food on meditation and Bhakti. It is stated that food is that we take in through all our five senses and not just what we eat and drink. Today‟s experience is also a test of surrender and equanimity for a Yogi. Baba gave updesh (teaching) on Bhakti (devotion) and Moksha (Liberation).

Yesterday He called her love as Para Bhakti and today she gets knowledge from with in that Para Bhakti is the ultimate goal of all spirituality. She sees Atma again and Baba tells her that is what she is now.

Last night she was in a Party and came home late. Hence woke up late and got ready for doing meditation. Her mind was wandering a lot and she was thinking about people in the Party. She asked Baba “What happened? Am I loosing it all?” Baba said “Food, food, food.” Then he said “Come sit down and talk to me.” Normally she goes into Bhakti but she did not feel like anything. She did not touch the feet of deities and was just standing there. Baba said “Whatever is happening must happen.” He reminded her of that and he always wanted her to maintain that. Baba said “Even if it is God related do not get

disturbed by anything.” Then she started touching the feet of deities. She touched the feet

of Ganeshji and Lakshmiji in the engraved coin we have and she closed her eyes while touching it to her eyes. At that time she saw Lakshmiji get much bigger than as seen on the coin and it was in the outline form in white light. Then she heard the voice “I told you that Raeshum and Shobun and their 20 generations are blessed with Laxmi. So are you in this life.” The voice reminded her of the jewelry she wore last night to the party was Lakshmiji‟s blessing. Then the outline form reduced back to the normal size. She then heard “All the Gods and Goddesses are blessing you.” She understood that it is because she is not differentiating between the deities. This in turn is leading her to Nirguna Brahman.

After that she touched Lord Shiva‟s feet and thought that she used to chant his name all the time and now it does not come out at all and was feeling bad. Voice said “No. Don‟t worry, you have to move on. You have to understand Vishnu aspect, sustenance

principle.”

She then touched Lord Krishna‟s feet. Baba said to her “Lord Vishnu‟s picture that is on the cover of Isopanishad book is the one to which your spirituality and good fortune can be attributed to. You need to understand all aspects of Vishnu principle.”

Baba said put Kum Kum on your forehead which she did and sat down to meditate.

Immediately He said “You want to go to R‟s house. Feeling left out. These are all Bhaktas but none of them are experiencing what you are experiencing.” She said in her mind with tears in her eyes “When all the Bhaktas are singing and chanting your glory, you will be there and I won‟t be there.” Baba said “I am within you all the time.”

He said “I told you that you will get knowledge from within. You thought that books will start appearing in your head. Now you are getting the knowledge from with in.” Then he started talking to her about Bhakti and Moksha. “Spirit is ever free, it is not bonded. It is the material that has limitations and gets bonded. (All of us have the same material components but limits of our material are different although our soul is the same). Ever free Spirit is the one which wants Moksha, liberation from this material bondage which is also called Maya. What you have learned in the books, Upanishads only describe what you are made of i.e. material and the Spirit. Who are you? Once you know who you are is how you get to liberation. Moksha is through Bhakti - Sahasranamas‟ etc. These mantras are the procedures to get to the principle but the pre requisite is still the purity and the virtuous character.” This is the knowledge she is gaining from with in. When he told her that she will gain it from with in it did not mean that she will be seeing the whole world and book knowledge through visions etc. That is ignorance and false understanding. He said she can still go ahead and read the books.

“Come back at 8pm and bring a coconut. Things will happen. What is happening is exactly per divine plan. Even the Kasula Danda (traditional Indian ornament) you were wearing (last night) and all the people were calling you south Indian, there is a reason for it.” She received an audio tape from P a while back which she listened and summarized it for me as Journey begins with Apara Bhakti; which leads to Knowledge; which leads to Wisdom (Jnana); which when applied to day to day life it leads to Para Bhakti. This is the Bhakti which is the ultimate of all spirituality through the Jnana route. Baba says “This is the reason why that audio tape was given to you.”

She saw the blue light which has been unusually beautiful with blue and white light mixed in it. At that time Baba said “You know that you are not body. This is what you

are.” She said she got more from that light but did not have words to describe it. She understood that what she saw was the soul, Atman.

We met I. at the party last night. He was looking unhappy and pulling along with life.

Shivangini in her heart wished him happiness and said “Baba, bless him; make him happy. He needs to be happy.” Baba replied “He will be. Now he will be.” This morning Baba said about I. “He has not learned to be content and find peace with in. Now he will.” Baba said “You are supposed to follow up on B. See how he is doing.”

May 18, 1998 Monday - In meditation today she sat down in surrender and Baba said “It is me who put those books (two volumes of Krishna and Isopanishad) in your den.” Then He started laughing. She asked “Why are you laughing? Is it just for fun you put those books there. Do you want me to read them?” Baba said “I want you to read those” and laughed again. She asked “Why are you laughing now?” He said “Oh. Don‟t you

understand who you laugh with, who you kid around with? I want you to kid around with me too. Laugh, spread joy. Be joyful. When someone is very close to you is when you kid around with them.” After that Baba taught her concentration by breathing. Focus on inhaling and exhaling, the length of time, controlling the breath for some time. She did for about 6-7 times. She went into deep meditation and had few visions.

May 21, 1998 Thursday - Today there is more light shed on Vishnu Bhakti and

sustenance aspect and the importance of meditation. She is getting exposed to diverse, at times contradicting philosophic thoughts so that she can see unity in diversity. All this is, as I understand now, a part of Vishnu Bhakti i.e. sustenance aspect.

She woke up again around 4 am. She did brief puja and then meditation. In puja she offered water with Tulasi leaf. There is a saying that Tulasi was a Bhakta of Lord Vishnu and her desire was that she should be with Lord Krishna eternally. He fulfilled this desire by turning her into a Tulasi (basil) plant. It has become a tradition to offer Tulasi to Lord Krishna.

Then she sat down for meditation. It was calm. Baba said “I have been watching you as you worshipped me as Krishna in the house, I saw you when you went to Tirupati, and I saw you in Jagannath Puri, Sanathan mandir, Keda pathi mandir in Gwalior …... I am there as well as the witness indweller inside you. I am within and without. Though I may not repeat things, what has been told to you holds true (referring to meditation in the temple is important. Though it is Lord Shiva‟s temple it does not mean that she should not meditate there).” Baba spoke about balancing of the Gunas. Each deity like Brahma, Vishnu, and Maheshwara are related to a Guna. Baba spoke about balancing the Rajas and Tamas.

She asked “Baba do you want me not to meditate anymore?” He said “I want you to meditate. That is one thing you should not ever quit. It is very important to keep up that practice.”

She is going through a difficult phase getting exposed to people like A, P, Sri Rama Krishna worship, Vedanta Society thought process, and others where there is so much difference or contradiction or variation at times. Baba is getting her to accept all this as His so that she gets to a point of being at ease with all of them.

May 24, 1998 Sunday - Meditation gets so deep that she is unable to trigger a thought in spite of Baba trying to get her to talk. At this deep meditation she does concentration on Chakras subconsciously. Only Baba knows how deep her meditation was. She sees visions of a different Loka where there are people sitting down meditating (Tapar Lok in causal cosmos?). Her meditation prompts her subconscious reaction to a mantra.

She reached the puja mandir, stood and looked at the deities in a contemplation mode.

She did not touch any feet. Yesterday she spoke to me saying that she does not know what relationship she has with Baba. Baba said “Relationship with me is Guru, Sadguru (inner Guru, God).” Then her thought was moved to viewing Lord Krishna as Eashwara (personal formful God). She touched his feet and then sat down to meditate and straight away went into deep meditation. Mind was quiet with no thoughts. Baba couple of times said “Devayani, talk to me.” She would start a thought to talk to him but slips back into meditation. She had a vision where she saw a paper that had two lines of Sanskrit shloka (aphorism) written on it and it stayed in vision long enough for her to read it. At that time she read and remembered but could not recollect it later. She continued her deep

meditation and was concentrating on chakras subconsciously without making any effort.

By the time she reached to the navel chakra she saw herself and Gyani on the ocean again (this is an earlier vision where we were lying on water and getting gently rocked). It felt like she was just there without much active participation either thought or observation etc. She saw another vision of outdoors, a sunny day, and she saw the backside of several people who were sitting down and meditating. Something inside told her that it is not from this Loka (world). It felt an exciting view for some reason.

Back in her meditation everything was quiet. She heard Baba‟s voice “Narayan, Bhaja Narayan”. She was back into deep concentration again. Suddenly she hears “Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya” and her head compulsively went down to end the meditation.

She got a message from Baba to quit and go downstairs and play the Vishnu and Lalitha Sahasranama.